Looking back on my own reality over a period of 3 decades

The evolution of the

HUMAN BEING

We all start out as idealists…

4 min readSep 24, 2018

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Perhaps as an early avid reader, “fully formed” personality by age 5 — you have set ideas about who you are, and what you will do when you grow up. You believe you are an original thinker, and that you will be an astronaut or ballerina or even better an artist & scientist. And help change the world : IDEALIST.

(at times that past 5 year old…appears stronger than the present 33 year old person )

5 year old gets a huge wake up call at some point, and the light within grows into a DISAPPOINTED IDEALIST

by age 12, viewing the world through the lens of a SCEPTIC — questioning any and all things (this turns into a general distrust of any group participation — believing that anything done in groups requires less brain power, as majority are simply following orders) — this distrust of groups can simply not be shaken to this day. People who give up their right to think for themselves are dangerous and should be avoided at all costs.

Denounces everything, and turns to Music & Art & Literature as an “obsession”

by 18 a complete CYNIC

Then chooses a different way of experiencing the world and starts a new mission

“The pursuit of positivity” - forced naivety =hippie peace freak — FORCED IDEALISM

This becomes unsustainable, as it’s unrealistc,

better suited in the shoes of a PESSIMIST

Realises the absurdity in all which exists — -and moves into a phase of finding no meaning in anything, and a sense of uselessness or pointlessness in it all. This gives rise to a rebellion of that pointlessness and the birth of

EXISTENTIALISM (in search of meaning — to create own meaning). This works for awhile, however. But ultimately this leads to phases of

NIHLISM — this turns out to be unsustainable, as the effects from thinking this way, affects productivity & motivation, and hence needs to be disregarded in order to get things done. It’s harder to complete something in hopelessness. This thinking is completely useless in the path I have chosen. Which gives way to

IDEALISTIC REALIST (still a bit unhinged, yet stuck on the idea the perfect world, the perfect plan, the perfect place)

forced change > moves into forming into a type of contradiction, a PRAGMATIC IDEALIST but mostly simply just a DILUTED SCEPTIC depending on the day

Forced change then chooses the most logical, honest, effective approach: Forget the idealism, and focus simply on effectiveness. PRAGMATIC PHASE (is it effective? does it work? what is the outcome? what should be done next? GTD)

This changes, and then evolves or opts for

a blend of STOICISM & Eastern Philosophy to learn acceptance & self control

This phase seems similar to the buddhist teachings, and decides it could be a safe way to reflect on situations, and seems to be a good option for the time being as it resonates

Then decides,

sick of thinking, strategising

enough passive activism…

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Perhaps, philosophy is simply a means to help you feel better, or feel nothing at all, in order to cope with the futility of being. But if you’re using philosophy to simply think but not act on, then it’s pointless.

Endless hypothesis’ of what “could” or “should be”.

Endless internal conflict about what you “should” be doing with your life

vs what you believe you “have” to be doing, your soul commands you to do this.

Never feeling you fit in, (wondering why face to face interactions are so difficult sometimes) so endlessly creating justifications as to what could be wrong with you, society & perception in general.

Instead of saying, who cares, does it matter? Just let it go, and be you.

The more we continue in an endless loop of working to travel to and from an office, waking up to get to a place you don’t want to be in, to do work you don’t want to do, to get paid to do it all again… And continue the endless inner dialogue of “if only I did this”, or “one day, I will do that… “

well, if you stay in the loop, then yes, philosophy is a necessary remedy.

Or you can stop overthinking,

stop reading everyone else’s philosophies

to try to make sense of the world.

Instead create your own way and find your bliss.

Master your craft

Work on real problems

that actually matter to you

Think, but translate those thoughts into real actions

stop postponing

stop waiting until the plan is perfect

or the process is perfect

or the people are perfect

or when you are perfect

stop pining after that perfect place

that day will never come

that perfect place doesn’t exist

those perfect ideas don’t exist

they need to be built and planted into reality

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Follow through from ideation to implementation

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Dream

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Think

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Be

Do

Give

Live

Learn

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  • REALIST
Move from thinking “Full Stack Designer” to instead focus on “Full Stack Human Being” — — source: wikihow to be a well-rounded person (yes, i googled that ;))

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Dreamer | Thinker | Thing-maker …Fascinated by perception/process/products/principles)